We felt like having our age limit was putting restraints on what God has called us to do and to be honest, I've had baby fever pretty bad lately. Not necessarily for our own or even a "little baby," I just wanted a little one. I wanted someone to rock to sleep and love on. I even told several people "I wish they would call for a little girl." Well, they did!
She's the sweetest and most adorable little girl I have ever seen. I so wish you could see her precious face. GG is perfect! (She even sleeps through the night and has attached to us so well.)
Sadly, GG may not be with us to long. Our hope is family can take her but that may take a few weeks to get them licensed. So for now, she's ours.
I'm gonna be totally honest. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. My heart aches at the thought of her leaving. I truly thought I would be able to do this and guard my heart and try not to attach so much, but I failed. I failed miserably. I even told God "If she leaves, we can't do littles again. I'm not ready." I was so upset. I cried most of the day. I'm thankful for the friends who listened to me ball my eyes out at work. (And this was two days after she came to us!) Then, He reminded me of why we started fostering, for Him. He reminded me we love because He loves us. He reminded me following Him is costly, and can even break your heart.
Sometimes God calls His people to do hard things. If you feel fostering isn't for you because you may get "to attached," the answer is you will. You will attach the moment they walk into your life and your heart will break the moment they leave. That's why God calls Christians to take care of the unloved. They need to be shown attachment, a safe place, and mostly the love of Christ-even when they are a little.
Loving a child, who I know will likely not remain in my home, is the HARDEST thing I've done. As I write this blog, I have the most precious soul sleeping on me. Knowing this isn't forever breaks my heart but all I can do is trust God. God has a purpose for her life. I'm thankful He has entrusted me with her life for the short amount of time He has. Do I pray for a miracle that she may stay? Of course I do! But Christ has given me a peace that surpasses all understanding about His plan and all I can do is pray the Lord's protection over GG's life. I also pray when GG finally goes to another place, He will make it a smooth transition and attach to them as much as she has us.
But for now, I'm finding joy in loving on GG! For the time she is here, we are going to love her as our own.
